1. |
Pyre
03:09
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You've faded away
From this path that's mine
I made no mistake
Cause i know ill be fine
You never loved me for me
But who you thought I could be
I just couldn't stay
And watch you undermine
Me in every way
So I made up my mind
Guess you're not really for me
I know the things I can be
So I've gone and set myself free
Erase my own memory
It was another day
It was another life
I've made myself a stray
I've learned to say goodbye
So I went down to the pyre
And I set it on fire
And I will build an empire
And I will rise again
Rise again
Truth is I never liked
Trynna be one of you
Never felt really psyched
Being part of your crew
No more trying to fit in
I won't take it with a grin
It's like I've seen the lights
Now that I'm not with you
None of you's worth the fight
I need something that's new
Wishing I could undo
The time wasted with you
It was another day
It was another life
I've made myself a stray
I've learned to say goodbye
So I went down to the pyre
And I set it on fire
And I will build an empire
And I will rise again
Rise again
Yeah I'll rise again
It was another day
It was another life
I've made myself a stray
I've learned to say goodbye
So I went down to the pyre
And I set it on fire
And I will build an empire
And I will rise again
It was another life
It was another fight
Just let the memories die
I've learned to say goodbye
'Cause I went down to the pyre
And I set it on fire
And I built an empire
So watch me rise again
I've risen again
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2. |
Therapy
03:14
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I am sorry that wasn't there
I promise that I really cared
There is no fun, there are no funfairs
In my head now it's only air
With pollution
I cannot find a solution
Absolution
Feels a lot like prosecution
I am tired of this fire
That always consumes me
I'm feeling like a zombie
I turn to ashes with your matches
Memories burning me
And I need therapy
And I'm sorry that I missed it all
I didn't hold you I just let you fall
There's only guilt, now I'm feeling small
And I'm still waiting 'til I see you crawl
Out of the ground
I miss the days you were around
It's like I'm spellbound
Defeated on the battleground
I am tired of this fire
That always consumes me
I'm feeling like a zombie
I turn to ashes with your matches
Memories burning me
And I need therapy
The old order has passed away: welcome them then into paradise, where there will be no sorrow, no weeping nor pain
I am tired of this fire
That always consumes me
I'm feeling like a zombie
I turn to ashes with your matches
Memories burning me
And I need therapy
My heart is broken
Feels like dying
How can I ever be
Even close to happy
Help me doctor
I'm a failure
But God took him from me
Please give me therapy
And I'm sorry
I'm sorry
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3. |
I Love The Pain
03:00
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I could settle
And not meddle
With these things that hurt my head
In this jungle
I could handle
Somewhere safe to rest my head
But it's not me
And I don't know why
Guess I'm hungry
For things gone awry
I just love the pain
I love being vain
So I can keep pushing my limits and break
I can't stand the way
You all play it safe
I wanna keep hurting and feeling awake
I just love the pain
I just love the pain
This addiction
Stranger than fiction
Is fatal I'm dying inside
It's my affliction
I know it's poison
I hate normal and I need wild
And it hate it
But I just can't stop
And I love it
Feel my heart drop
I just love the pain
I love being vain
So I can keep pushing my limits and break
I can't stand the way
You all play it safe
I wanna keep hurting and feeling awake
I just love the pain
Why do I love bad
Things that make me sad
I just love the pain
I love being vain
So I can keep pushing my limits and break
I can't stand the way
You all play it safe
I wanna keep hurting and feeling awake
I just love the pain
I just love the pain
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4. |
Damn!
02:55
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So spit your venom
I can feel it blossom
Into something awesome
It made me who I am
So spit that venom
Your hateful venom
I'll take it till I'm numb
See if I give a damn
Damn! Damn!
Damn!
Why you gotta be so mean
You fill my lungs with gasoline
And all I can breathe is the smoke of your fire
Damn
Why do you always have to win
A taste of your own medicine
Is all you'll get with no hope for ceasefire
Damn! Damn!
I Love your poison
It is like a potion
That keeps my attention
On staying where I am
It's my invention
I'm my own creation
You don't need to question
Me why d'you give a damn
Damn! Damn!
Damn!
Why you gotta be so mean
You fill my lungs with gasoline
And all I can breathe is the smoke of your fire
Damn
Why do you always have to win
A taste of your own medicine
Is all you'll get with no hope for ceasefire
Damn!
Why d'you have to be so mean
Damn!
Why you gotta be so mean
You fill my lungs with gasoline
And all I can breathe is the smoke of your fire
Damn
Why do you always have to win
A taste of your own medicine
Is all you'll get with no hope for ceasefire
Why you gotta be so mean
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5. |
I Don't Like You
03:01
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I should give up and let it go
But your hot and cold is all I know
And it is messing with my brain
Lately I've been feeling so low
But I've smiled and put on a show
You're a let down like summer rain
You're summer rain
Pain in my brain
I do love you
But I don't like you
I don't like you
Just like you do
I'm hurting too
Cause I'm lost in you
You're a showman, the greatest con
You entertain from dust to dawn
I fell for it but now I know
That from the start I was a pawn
You needed someone to lean on
While you struggled in the shadow
And this shadow
Is all you know
Consumed with pride confident tone
Deep down inside you're all alone
You're like a child and no backbone
I do love you
But I don't like you
I don't like you
Just like you do
I'm hurting too
Cause I'm lost in you
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6. |
Feast
04:45
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Your crusade
To have the ennemy distroyed it drove you mad
But I'm sure you really enjoyed playing with blades
We are the victims to be toyed with
When you're dead you'll still need to be fed
You're like a spear
Going through me
Screams of despair
I know you hear me
So feast feast feast
Enjoy the view
You're a beast beast beast
And it's all for you
Always mystify
Never clarify
I should have said goodbye
But I was into you
So feast feast feast
As I die for you
As I die for your entertainment
You betrayed
My trust it must have brought you joy watch me decay
While you celebrate all the spoils of wars you made
Just like a silly little boy and
When you're dead you'll still need to be fed
You're like a spear
Going through me
Screams of despair
I know you hear me
So feast feast feast
Enjoy the view
You're a beast beast beast
And it's all for you
Always mystify
Never clarify
I should have said goodbye
But I was into you
So feast feast feast
As I die for you
Planted your teeth in me before I could agree
Buried beneath with me but I've set myself free
You're so blood thirsty
So blood thirsty
You're like a spear
Going through me
Screams of despair
I know you hear me
So feast feast feast
Enjoy the view
You're a beast beast beast
And it's all for you
Always mystify
Never clarify
I should have said goodbye
But I was into you
So feast feast feast
As I die for you
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7. |
Not What I Want
03:40
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Yeah it's clear to me
I don't belong
These are things I just don't get and they're all around me
You got rid of me
But I'm headstrong
You want me to feel bad for things but I'm not guilty
So you can say you're sorry
You can say you worry
That you care about me
All you want
You can share your glory
Tell me your sob story
It's almost predatory
It's not what I want
Go ahead judge me
Say nothing's wrong
Feel like you must be nice because it's compulsory
So don't smile at me
Don't tag along
I'm done with pretending don't you know it isn't me
So you can say you're sorry
You can say you worry
That you care about me
All you want
You can share your glory
Tell me your sob story
It's almost predatory
It's not what I want
So crop me out of your pictures
Write me off your scriptures
I don't need no lecture
No I need no lecture
You cropped me out your pictures
I wrote you off my scriptures
Think you need a lecture
I'll give you your lecture
So you can say you're sorry
You can say you worry
That you care about me
All you want
You can share your glory
Tell me your sob story
It's almost predatory
It's not what I want
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8. |
Moonlight
03:09
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And I don't like
Your toxic positivity
Don't share your light
It's all bullshit to me
All little lies
False sense of security
You've closed your eyes
You can't face reality
And I swear on your head
I'm OK I'm alright
I don't need your help
I'm awake I'm alive
Don't try to be my sunshine
Just let me live by moonlight
And I don't like
Your cliche mentality
You shine so bright
But it means nothing to me
I'd rather fly
With my own melancholy
Than live a lie
To fit your reality
And I swear on your head
I'm OK I'm alright
I don't need your help
I'm awake I'm alive
Don't try to be my sunshine
Just let me live by moonlight
Moonlight moonlight moonlight moonlight
And I swear on your head
I'm OK I'm alright
I don't need your help
I'm awake I'm alive
Don't try to be my sunshine
Just let me live by moonlight
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9. |
Sunglasses
03:29
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Do my sunglasses hide my tears
And is my silence music to your ears
I won't smile
Just so you can feel
Less hostile
You hate it when im real
You like when I'm a clown
Wanna reverse that frown
But truth is that I'm down
I feel trapped underground
I know
I'm a drag
But we can't all be made of sunshine
All these
Heavy bags
I'm always carrying around
Please hear
Me now
Don't shut me up I need someone
To be here
For now
Can't get up I've just been kicked down
'Cause we can't all be made of sunshine
I'm the fun one I make you laugh
But does it matter I'm never enough
For you lot
I'm sorry I can't be
What you want
Can't you see the real me
Guess I'll keep on being a clown
Not turn your world upside down
I'll let you wear the crown
You'll reign and watch me drown
I know
I'm a drag
But we can't all be made of sunshine
All these
Heavy bags
I'm always carrying around
Please hear
Me now
Don't shut me up I need someone
To be here
For now
Can't get up I've just been kicked down
'Cause we can't all be made of sunshine
Do my sunglasses hide my tears
And is my silence music to your ears
I know
I'm a drag
But we can't all be made of sunshine
All these
Heavy bags
I'm always carrying around
Please hear
Me now
Don't shut me up I need someone
To be here
For now
Can't get up I've just been kicked down
'Cause we can't all be made of sunshine
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10. |
Pleaser
03:11
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Why should I sit still
Proud and tall like I'm feeling no joy
Proper lady skill
Yeah it's fun cause I dress like a boy
And I know the drill
But it's you that I seem to annoy
Know I love the thrill
Cause it's who I am not a ploy
I'll never hear you say
"Will you be my baby"
Never hear you say
"Will you be my friend"
You don't wanna play
Unless I'm sweet like honey
You love a good cliche
I'm not sorry that's not me
And I'm laying here
With my thoughts and my grief I'm confused
Wish they'd disappear
But instead I can feel their abuse
And if I sleep on it
Will I wake up with a brand new excuse
For just being me
Took the loss cause I am my own muse
I'll never hear you say
"Will you be my baby"
Never hear you say
"Will you be my friend"
You don't wanna play
Unless I'm sweet like honey
You love a good cliche
I'm not sorry that's not me
I'm no pleaser no
I'll never hear you say
"Will you be my baby"
Never hear you say
"Will you be my friend"
And you know what that's ok
Just gotta do things my way
I'm too much for you hey
I'm not sorry that's just me
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11. |
Sleepless
02:45
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So many thoughts now running through my head
Always overstay their welcome when it's late
All I wanted was an early night well
My head's like "no way
You will listen to me"
And I'm awake when the world is asleep
And I think about my life
When I should be deeply asleep
Looks like I won't close those eyes
I'm sleepless
In the morning I'll feel like shit once again
But I'll get up and slay
Like I do every day
Guess it's true that if there's no pain there's no gain
Who needs sleep anyway
I'll do that when I'm dead
And I'm awake when the world is asleep
And I think about my life
When I should be deeply asleep
Looks like I won't close those eyes
I'm sleepless
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12. |
Summertime
03:06
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You bore me 'cause I think you're basic
I should leave 'cause it's getting toxic
Heard you speak and I almost got sick
I'm cranky so can we change the topic
You're cheering 'cause you know it's Friday
But my face is looking like a Monday
And I don't care 'bout anything that you say
I'm off now but I'll see you next Tuesday
Hey! Hey! do your thing
And I will do my thing
My summertime though
Keeps it gray and rainy
The sun is shining
But I just wanna go home
I hear the wind blow
So I'll keep on celebrating
Thunder is coming
To keep me in my comfort zone
Sometimes I wish I was an NT
But more, like, I'm feeling like an ND
I want your friendship not your pity
Can you fill my glass 'cause it's half empty
I'm sitting in neurotypical hell
But I'll stay 'til I hear the last orders bell
I bet you think you know me so damn well
Surprise it's the real me so let me spell
It out for you now
Show you what I'm about
My summertime though
Keeps it gray and rainy
The sun is shining
But I just wanna go home
I hear the wind blow
So I'll keep on celebrating
Thunder is coming
To keep me in my comfort zone
They say
Do our thing
Play our game
Maybe you could smile a little bit more
Be the face of the phrase "J'adore"
Yeah I
Do things wrong
Don't belong
I don't recall asking for your opinion
Never gonna be one of your minions
My summertime though
Keeps it gray and rainy
The sun is shining
But I just wanna go home
I hear the wind blow
So I'll keep on celebrating
Thunder is coming
To keep me in my comfort zone
I live in a world that's not made for me
Must be bliss to be so dumb and happy
Don't ask me why I'm always so grumpy
I'm too real but let's not ruin the party
Sucks that this world was not made for me
Must be great to be normal and carefree
Don't ask me why I'm so weird and nerdy
I'm too real so let's not ruin the party
I meant it no this wasn't a typo
You're offended I really don't care no
I'm fairly sure that I'm a psycho
Don't need you 'cause I do things solo
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13. |
Crown of Thorns
03:05
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This song goes to your friends
They're always here to mend
You wear your crown of thorns to your
Wounds they always tend
They're here sharing your bread
They're happy when they're fed
Full of your words and charms the sheep
Love to be led
They worship the new heir
They dismiss the new player
They don't care 'bout what's fair
It's beyond repair
I'll stay away
What's the point in fighting when all of us are gonna die
Make no mistake
I may look like I'm cool but deep down I'm not alright
With all the ways
You walked away from me it's clear that you picked a side
Let's not be fake
Accept that we are done so I can at least keep my pride
I'm sitting on my bed
Stuck inside my own head
I'm thinking 'bout all the bad things you did
And all your toxic friends
They mean well but they bend
To your will and honestly that's too bad
I said it in a prayer
I sung it to the maker
I wanted to get better
But it just looked wrong
A villain in a lair
You caught me unaware
Why did I even care
Listen to my song
I'll stay away
What's the point in fighting when all of us are gonna die
Make no mistake
I may look like I'm cool but deep down I'm not alright
With all the ways
You walked away from me it's clear that you picked a side
Let's not be fake
Accept that we are done so I can at least keep my pride
Why would I want friends
Who aren't even my friends
Yeah I think I'm fine but thank you
Thank you, thank you
I'll stay away
What's the point in fighting when all of us are gonna die
Make no mistake
I may look like I'm cool but deep down I'm not alright
With all the ways
You walked away from me it's clear that you picked a side
Let's not be fake
Accept that we are done so I can at least keep my pride
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Alexis Lace London, UK
Singer/songwriter based in London, UK. Her second album, "Love Me or Hate Me", will be released on 13.10.2023. It will be highly introspective, the main themes being personal growth, self acceptance, individuality and failed friendships. The first official single, "Crown of Thorns", will be released on 09.25.2023. ... more
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